Don’t tell me. You’re that type of girl/guy that longs for a relationship just like this. You’re a hopeless romantic just like I am. You hate yourself, you think you’re ugly, but you help others so they don’t have to struggle. You push people away because you’re afriad to get hurt. But really, this perfect girl/guy you’ve had a crush on just leads you on, doesn’t tell you straight up how he/she feels. It toys with your heart, you fall over and over his/her words. They have you at the edge of your seat, your heart injected with butterflies, those butterflies make their way through your body.
It’s a lovely emotion. You don’t want it to ever end. You’re the type of person that at least tries, but they can’t see past that. You want to make them feel like they’re the only one in this world. It’s hard for you because they don’t think they’re special or good enough. But you do everything in their power to prove it. When they ignore you, it’s one of the most painful things you’ll feel. Being rejected because you’re not good enough, skinny enough, pretty/handsome enough.
I still today still long for love like this. Love has always been something to cover up all of the fresh wounds, the process of your heart healing. When someone tells you that you’re beautiful, you don’t believe them because you’re afraid you’re being lied to. You look at yourself in the mirror, and there’s an image of a broken human in your reflection. They’re sad, they still go on wondering what’s wrong with them. I too wonder that every breath I take.
You just want them to go up to you even if they don’t know you and say,”You’re beautiful. Take this chance with me.” That’s the most rare thing that will ever be spoken. Just because you’re not as pretty as those tumblr scene girls doesn’t mean you’re not worth every breath to that one person, or to someone that secretly wants you. It’s hard to actually accept that fact. We all dwell on someone that we want more than ourselves but… they never gave us a chance. You won’t ever know if you don’t try. But, you see you’re the one that’s been trying. I know image is everything to everyone, and you dwell upon hating yourself and wishing you could rip your flesh off your bone because you’re not as perfect or skinn as him/her.
The breath taking guys and girls should considering giving hopeless romantics, low self esteeemed, broken people like us a chance. Everyone deserves a chance.
“Sometimes you gotta fall before you fly”
You doubt yourself because they’re perfect and you’re not.
I’m sure there is hope out there for me and you. I hope time doesn’t take too long.